Sometimes I like to stop and reflect on life. Especially when I’m stressed and things seem out of control. I remember how incredibly blessed I am. I remind myself how happy I am and what a great life I live. I would not be where I am if I hadn’t gone through what I did. Life is a journey and sometimes the journey is really hard. Sometimes it’s wonderful but also painful.
In the moment of excruciating pain, you can’t help but wish it away. Anything to take the pain away. The years I spent crying myself to sleep, hoping I wouldn’t wake up. Wishing the mean girls would stop spreading rumours about me. Wishing the people I trusted would treated me better. Wishing God had given me a different life. There where moments when I really thought I would never make it through. But, I did make it through. I made it through and I am stronger.
In my weakest moments, God was strong. In the midst of my pain, he was there. When everyone abandoned me, he stayed with me. He used my pain to make me a better person. He used the people who hurt, to show me how to love. He used my failures to teach me. He used all of it to bring me to where I am now.
I am who I am because of what I’ve been through. I’m strong because people tried to break me down. I’m loyal because I know what it’s like to be abandoned. I’m a fighter because I’ve be attacked. I’m passionate because I’ve seen the good. I love because I’ve been loved.
To all the people who hurt me, hated me, and caused me pain: thank you.
Without you I wouldn’t be who I am…and who I am is pretty amazing.
I will be still and know you are God.